I know this isn’t really gonna matter to anyone
I’ve gotta admit I’ve been feeling like shit for the past few weeks, basically since I’ve gotten out of the hospital. And I’ve kind of fallen out of watching AH videos and actually wanting to. And that made me feel a lot worse because I love them and they used to keep me from feeling so terrible and one night I sat down do watch a Lets Play and I couldn’t sit still and pay attention for more than three or four minutes at a time.
And tonight I tried that again, I couldn’t pay too much attention with my eyes because I was anxious so I turned on Minecraft and played while I listened to them. Eventually I didn’t want to play anymore and I’ve been watching for the past two or three hours. It isn’t making me feel less sad or depressed or anxious but it’s nice to know I can watch again.